Tuesday

Last night I was offered food and drinks twice. Vegan chocolate cake and gumbo, things I normally would have tried because I've never had them before, but for the purpose of this experiment are off limits. At Theology on Tap, a group of Catholic young adults who gather to drink and discuss theology topics (as the name suggests), the smell of the wine was nearly overwhelming from the person's glass sitting next to me. I was starving, and I could feel a headache coming on from not eating enough calories for the day. I went home last night and ate nearly half of the cereal box while updating this.

This morning, I woke up feeling very weak and very hungry. I think I've realized that the most difficult part of this is not having enough to eat, but that I am forcing myself not to eat to stay within the budget. I feel like I'm not in control of my own life or decisions. I sort of feel like I'm on a diet with all of these restrictions. It's incredibly mentally taxing, and because I can't eat, all I think about is eating, about timing when I eat to be able to stretch it out as long as possible. I also have found that I need to increase my water intake.

Breakfast:
Orange juice and more than two handfuls of cereal. Probably at least five. And a glass of water.

Mid-morning snack:
Half of my fruit crisp that was supposed to be saved for lunch.

Lunch:
PB&J and the remaining fruit crisp.

Dinner:
Ramen.

I would have liked to go out to eat tonight at one of my favorite studying/eating places, Fido or the Frothy Monkey or Portland Brew or Panera, but that isn't possible this week thanks to not being able to spend any money to eat or drink there. It's only slightly rude to order a glass of water and mooch off of their wi-fi.

Surprisingly, I'm not as hungry tonight as I was last night. Maybe it's not being as tempted by food offered by others. I have also consumed much more water today than yesterday, which helps a lot.


Is it Sunday yet?